Image in a New Light (Chris Ruddock)

My post this week is really in relation to one of my major goals or issues, which I just realised that I have not spoken about in much detail.

Mental note – Write goals post….

Anyway, the issue that I am referring to is my negative body image issue.  It is something that became quite serious when I was about 10 years old for a variety of reasons.

When I began my HSM one of my major goals was to change this by; getting fit, loosing weight and achieving a more attractive body.  At that point I believed that was the way in which I had to over come my body image issues.

After almost 3 months of dealing with issues and trying to get fit I still find it really confronting and hard to; admit to my body image issues and also to walk around shirtless in front of anyone that is not my family or girlfriend (however I still find it hard sometimes around her).  The reasons I find it hard is because it is like letting down my force field (that being my shirt) and allowing people to see what I really look like – which I think is not attractive!!

However, since starting some intense training with fellow blogger Brendan I have realised that I am approaching this issue in the wrong way – I NEED to be 100% comfortable in my own body right now before I can achieve the traditionally attractive male body.   Until I can do that and be comfortable and happy with my body I wont get anywhere.