How everything can change so fast and turn your world upside down. I am now sitting at Melbourne airport waiting for a connecting flight to take me back to my home town to see my family. Only this time we will be minus one. Two days ago I had some shocking news. I picked up the telephone to hear my mother crying and that she had some bad news to tell me. I knew it had something to do with my father but certainly not to this extent.
The past few days have seemed like a bad nightmare. I never thought that something like this could ever happen to our family. My father was an extremely caring, thoughtful and loving man. However he never wanted anything that he had to deal with to affect us adversely in any way.
You will notice that I haven’t put words to what has actually happened. This is because I would like to keep some things private and partly because I can barely bring myself to acknowledge that this has happened.
I started out these posts with the best intentions of writing something humorous and entertaining that everyone will enjoy reading. So I apologise if this is not the post you were hoping to be reading, but this one is for me.
It is not my intention to write this blog for you to feel sad for me. So please don’t tell me you’re sorry, instead send me only your love and happiness. Tell me a story about how you accidentally made a fool of yourself, tell me how you just met the most beautiful women/man in the world, tell me a dream, tell me how you’re going to conquer the globe, or even just the Futsal court.
Thank you Dad for teaching me that money is not everything, only to make sure I am happy in whatever path I choose.
Thank you for teaching me how to be myself and giving me the confidence to be proud of who I am.
Thank you for teaching me how to shake hands, look people in the eye and remember someone’s name.
Thank you for teaching me everything about the world, nurturing me, encouraging me, loving me, and caring for me.
And thank you for giving me everything a son could ever want and more.
I know you are in a better place now, I only wish you didn’t have to leave us so soon. But I know it would not honour your wishes for me to wallow in self pity, or start a personal crusade against anyone and everyone that has ever done you wrong. You only ever wanted me to feel fulfilled and happy. So I am going to make sure I honour one of your favourite quotes ‘Carpe Diem’ and make the most of every day. I am going to follow my dreams to achieve everything you have allowed me to dream of. I only hope I can make you proud.
Dad I love you so much forever and always.
Love from tuo figlio (your son).
Posted 16/07/10
How everything can change so fast and turn your world upside down. I am now sitting at Melbourne airport waiting for a connecting flight to take me back to my home town to see my family. Only this time we will be minus one. Two days ago I had some shocking news. I picked up the telephone to hear my mother crying and that she had some bad news to tell me. I knew it had something to do with my father but certainly not to this extent.
The past few days have seemed like a bad nightmare. I never thought that something like this could ever happen to our family. My father was an extremely caring, thoughtful and loving man. However he never wanted anything that he had to deal with to affect us adversely in any way.
You will notice that I haven’t put words to what has actually happened. This is because I would like to keep some things private and partly because I can barely bring myself to acknowledge that this has happened.
I started out these posts with the best intentions of writing something humorous and entertaining that everyone will enjoy reading. So I apologise if this is not the post you were hoping to be reading, but this one is for me.
It is not my intention to write this blog for you to feel sad for me. So please don’t tell me you’re sorry, instead send me only your love and happiness. Tell me a story about how you accidentally made a fool of yourself, tell me how you just met the most beautiful women/man in the world, tell me a dream, tell me how you’re going to conquer the globe, or even just the Futsal court.
Thank you Dad for teaching me that money is not everything, only to make sure I am happy in whatever path I choose.
Thank you for teaching me how to be myself and giving me the confidence to be proud of who I am.
Thank you for teaching me how to shake hands, look people in the eye and remember someone’s name.
Thank you for teaching me everything about the world, nurturing me, encouraging me, loving me, and caring for me.
And thank you for giving me everything a son could ever want and more.
I know you are in a better place now, I only wish you didn’t have to leave us so soon. But I know it would not honour your wishes for me to wallow in self pity, or start a personal crusade against anyone and everyone that has ever done you wrong. You only ever wanted me to feel fulfilled and happy. So I am going to make sure I honour one of your favourite quotes ‘Carpe Diem’ and make the most of every day. I am going to follow my dreams to achieve everything you have allowed me to dream of. I only hope I can make you proud.
Dad I love you so much forever and always.
Love from tuo figlio (your son).
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18/07/10
Alex, I once made a massive fool of myself, it came from, you guessed it, a night of drinking with my mates. We were drunk and bored so decided to jump the fence at the local pool. I stripped down to my underwear and went for a swim, only problem was, when I got out of the pool, a mate grabbed the back of my boxer shorts and ripped them right off (he thought it would be funny). So there I am, standing starkers under a floodlight at the local pool when security show up. I grabbed my pants, jumped the fence and ran off into the night.
18/07/10
Hey Alex, I work with some of Australia’s most amazing scientists (I am not one myself) and every day I am amazed at the incredible things they are discovering which all go towards preventing childhood diseases. They save kids lives every day. There are so many good things happening in the world, people who care and want to to help and want to make it better. I am putting all my energy every day into leaving this place better than I found it. Tomorrow I am doing some really exciting PR for HSM and on Tuesday I have a date for the first time in eight months! Scary but very exciting. Sending you so much love and happiness Alex xo
19/07/10
Hey Alex, my Grandad taught me how to shake hands and look someone in the eye, everytime I shake someones hand I think about every moment Grandad shook my hand, how he squeezed it to bits but told me that it was the best thing for me, thinking back to that makes me smile, so thanks for making me smile.
19/07/10
Jason: Ha ha. Something tells me you’re not short of stories like this Jase. Have you ever heard of a guy called ‘Tucker Max’. He’s yet another over confident American, however he also doesn’t mind having a laugh at himself. He started a blog writing about all his stories and turned it into a number one best selling book. Maybe this is just a stepping a stone and you could do something similar but also tell the other side of the story when not drinking.
Ebony: So happy for you Ebony, looking forward to hearing how the date goes in your next post
Do you feel that HSM has allowed you to feel more liberated and self confident now that you don’t have to rely on alcohol in social situations? Also I wouldn’t worry too much about not getting to the next stage, as you mentioned in your previous post, because I think you are already there. As soon as people see that you are happy with the person you are then that is magnetic and you will automatically start attracting people. If you rush it you may accidentally go for someone that isn’t right, but if you just explore and enjoy then it takes away all the pressure. Just a theory anyway, good luck.
20/07/10
Mel: Its funny how we can take away so much from the these events that at first appearance are minor occurrences but down the track you realise that they mean so much. Thanks for the support, your posts have really helped me improve my own perception as to what HSM is all about.
25/07/10
Eating, loving, singing and digesting are, in actuality, the four acts of the mirthful opera known as freshness, and they pass like bubbles of a grit of champagne. Whoever lets them break without having enjoyed them is a entire fool.
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