Saturday night, Girls night, still feeling very hungover from the night before. Girls turn up, first drink is poured. Start to feeling a bit uncomfortable as I do not do well in  big groups. Drink more and more, Then NO memory. I was apparently extremely out of control and have upset my group of friends.. I learnt the hard way today by a friend saying she is giving up on our friendship as she doesn’t know what to do anymore.

This is the weekend that may change my life, hence why I have bit the bullet and joined Hello Sunday Morning for 3 months!

Within this 3 months I have a goal to get fit and begin to love life and most importantly begin to have self respect and self love. I currently run my own beauty salon from home and also a freelance Makeup Artist but I feel I have not been putting my 100% effort into the business. I am already beginning to be successful  but I keep thinking “imagine how much I could get done instead of lazing of the couch dying every saturday and sunday   and sometimes Monday”

I am also heading to Europe with my partner on the 31st August. I realise that my first 12 days of my trip, I will still be doing HSM. But why wold I want to drink when I am in EUrope, Why would I want to get drunk and forget about the wonderful places I visit. Why would I want to be too hungover to enjoy the scenery and amazing places we are visiting!  The thing is most people do end up getting too excited (as I do) and think I would have more fun when completely blotto!! (I just surprised myself by writing and having this view on my travels – If you asked me even 3 days ago, I would have said there is NO WAY i’m not drinking in Europe – funny how the mindset can change)

Here are my list of goals for the next 3 months:

- Start back at the gym (Do atleast 2 yoga sessions a week)

- Write a to do list for every day (I feel a sense of achievement and get more done when I have a list)

- Read

- Be mindful

- Feel proud about being part of HSM

- Post my blog over my facebook to all my friends and not be ashamed of what I am doing (This will be a tough as i am the known PARTY GIRL )

- COMMIT and enjoy the experience (I don’t know about anyone else but I can’t count how many times I have said “I’m not drinking for a while” or “I’m never drinking again” often on Sunday’s or Monday’s) – This time it is for real!

Before writing this blog I was feeling upset/scared/anxious about the whole experience but now I am feeling positive/excited/ willing to give this a shot.

Looking forward to joining the team. I would love some advise to get through the first weekend, It is a friends birthday and of course it is held at a pub.

Sweet dreams

Pink Lily xxx