OPERATION #6
19/04/12 • 2 Comments

Hello once again my friends. I have just spent the last 9 days in hospital for my 6th major abdominal surgery, 7 hours on the table, 67 staples to hold me together and the next 2 months recovery. I have had 5 of those within the past 5 years. Do  I think this has something to do with my relationship with alcohol………..yeah. Will they operate in this area again, … No, to much damage is being done to the stuff that works fine, so I guess when the abundance of scar tisue that my body seems to enjoy making eventually decides to strangle the shit out of everything once again, I may just politely say goodnight and go for a dirt sleep. For those who think this site is a game, or some dating site, pack your toys up and bugger off, for the legimate folk, continue and please …..please…..put [...]

NOT MUCH GOOD AT THIS SOBER THING.
31/12/11 • 5 Comments

My actions are not following my intent. I had three beers while fishing last Sunday. I had two more beers on Monday, fishing again. Come Tuesday, I wrote myself off, it’s now new years eve, and I’m on my second already.

L I S T E N TO THIS
29/12/11 • 0 Comments

\\\”If you want to achieve greatness……Stop asking for permission\\\”

CHRISTMAS EVE………
23/12/11 • 5 Comments

It\’s Christmas eve, my heart is pounding, I\’m breaking out in sweats, and my thought process is now being tested to it\’s limits………..Why, I\’m glad you asked. There is A box of beer and three bottles of wine in the fridge, for when people come over tonight, and I\’m sure there will be more to come when everyone arrives, I\’m not taking this real easy. Am I strong enough, what are my options, should I be socialable and have a couple, which will turn into 1000, then I\”ll become pissed and evolve into a complete social fuck up…..I need extra strenght tonight and I\’m not sure where I can get it from. 

F E A R
23/12/11 • 2 Comments

I, just like many others are fearful of creating a new self that doesnt involve alcohol, this may help you to step over that hurdle. F E A R = False Evidence Appearing Real – FEAR, this is what happens when we\’re drunk, when we decide to sober things up, that fear is still around, but in a differant form, the fear of sobriety, whats life like without a glass in front of you….fear that you may not handle it, fear thinking what if no one likes me now, fear that keeps you down, can be turned around, if your absolutely serious about NOT drinking, think of this. Your thoughts are giving you false evidence, and what appeared real, was actually only a routine.