THE MIND IS EVERYTHING. WHAT YOU THINK YOU BECOME.
25/04/11 • 5 Comments

Been feeling great the last couple of days. Even though it’s Easter and normally I would drink a bucket of alcohol over these days. But no I’ve been feeling stronger and better longer then I can remember. Been having breakfast nice and early in the morning, sitting down at a nice cafe reading my head off. And been going for lots of walks. Stuff I would normally never do. And although it’s been weird and all at the start, now I feel more energetic and also been eating healthier. So yes looking back at my binge drinking, I’m proud of what I’m doing and how much I have improved so far. Have even started a gratitude journal. Something I always wanted to do because it changes your brain it changes how you look at things and overall, it’s life improving.

Come out the other end as a stronger better person.
21/04/11 • 2 Comments

Another day of not having a drink. 21 days now.It feels good. I feel good. Im grateful for not drinking for a while now.  But.  Yes there’s a but, and but normally is not a good sign. The thing is, I’ve always socialized with alcohol and just don’t know any better. If I don’t have a drink in my hand I feel very very weird. I feel left out, I feel shy, I feel like I can’t have a conversation without it. I need that drink In my hand to give me confidence. So now for all those days of not drinking I’ve been staying at home. I’ve got a friend staying with me what helped me lot. But what happens if this person goes away. Do I fall back into my old routine? I don’t have many friends. All my friends are pub friends. Fake very fake. I can’t [...]

My life style determines my death style!
20/04/11 • 3 Comments

I’m 37 years of age and been drinking since I’ve been 16 years old. So that’s more then half of my life. So I’ve decided enough is enough.  I had my last night of heavy drinking on 1st April. (no joke   Felt real sick the next day and decided then and there that I was not going to drink anymore. And after 20 days I feel so much better that I’ll never go back to that lifestyle again. It’s hard very hard and might even get some help if temptation gets the better of me. But so far I’m doing great.  For the last 10 years alcohol has become a real problem for me.  I grew up In Holland In a small town where it was rather boring, so on the weekends it was drinking on Friday, till we couldn’t walk anymore and the same on Saturday. Lots of [...]