I'm a guy in my later 30's who I guess has nurtured a drinking habit for over 20 years. I have always kept a job and had a great social life and surprisingly my health is still really good considering my age and the way i have treated my body. I think i have an ability to deal with and move on from my mistakes....So everytime i get drunk (which is every time i drink) and fall over or say the wrong thing or whatever i simply get over it and my guilt, it seems the alcohol is always waiting, so the next time i just have to control myself a little better, it rarely happens. Anyway I'm sick of the black spots, the numbers in my phone who I don't know, the endless healing of cuts and bruises, the wasted days of sleeping and the constant excuse....'sorry, I was drunk'.