Week at a time
31/03/12 • 7 Comments

One week at a time without alcohol, starting today.  Surely I can do a week, need support though – I’m so inconsistent.  It’s a start…

I have a drinking problem.
10/10/11 • 9 Comments

It’s Monday and I’m in the usual post alcoholic haze, swearing off alcohol forever.  I’m hoping this is different.  I, like most people, associate the words ‘drinking problem’ with the movie version of an alcoholic.  Stashing bottles of vodka in hiding places, drinking in the morning, crashing cars, ruining relationships and making scenes.  I always knew I abused alcohol, I was not so blind that I could not see that. It is medicinal to me – the social lubricant when I feel anxious or unattractive, the dull buzz I needed when I feel bored or alone.  I never really considered myself to have a drinking problem though. I do.  I get so drunk it’s not fun anymore. If I look back at all the things I regret, all the parts of my life I’m unhappy with – they’re all related to alcohol or drugs in some way.  My behaviour under the influence is [...]