What do you do when you’re freaking out for no apparent reason?
24/04/12 • 1 Comment

I don’t know! I’ve been seeing someone, and it’s been going really well. I’ve been keeping my shit together since I last wrote, and am loving being alone in my house in a strange sort of way. And yet, I can’t feel contented. What is it about me that always requires a little bit of recklessness? I’ve been warned about this already, but I wasn’t expecting the boredom to come on so quickly. Today’s been good. I’ve gone to the gym, and made sure I’ve kept off caffeine and too much sugar. The worst thing? I invited this poor bloke over to my house tonight. But I am totally freaked at the thought of him coming over, and worse – staying over. I suggested catching up later, but even that is going to be a problem I think, as he doesn’t finish work until 6, and I can’t be bothered [...]

It’s a bit more complicated than that
17/04/12 • 4 Comments

I would like to thank everyone who left a comment on my post yesterday. It wasn’t easy to write, and I’m glad I got such positive feedback. Even if you didn’t leave a comment, if you read it and realised that sometimes life gets complicated, that’s great too. I’ve been reading a book by a Guardian journalist and doctor, Ben Goldacre called Bad Science. The premise is based on his weekly column in the newspaper that ran for many months. It concerns how science is often manipulated and distorted by the media, drug companies and bogus health professionals. The text is incredibly rich with detail, and I now feel like I shouldn’t be doing anything without reading at least 15 peer-reviewed, blind-controlled, unbiased studies. Unfortunately I don’t have the time or energy for all that, so I’ll have to take my doctor’s word for it that what he’s telling me [...]

Bipolarity
16/04/12 • 7 Comments

Hello Monday Morning. I received an email from a kindly sort-of stranger over the weekend. This person said that they had wondered what was happening with me, and where I was. Time to come clean guys. Two weeks ago I was diagnosed with bipolar. It is something that I have long suspected, but have been unable to get a concrete diagnosis. Given the nature of psychology, it is indeed difficult to get a diagnosis that is solid. However, this is the way things are and part of the issue is learning appropriate ways to manage the condition. I know now that there are 5 main ways of dealing with this: Medication Counselling Sleep Diet Exercise Getting all these in balance is something that I find particularly pervasive not only in my life, but in the culture in which we live. Every time you pick up a magazine there is an [...]

Sickness
20/03/12 • 3 Comments

Since Saturday night I have felt increasingly unwell. Sunday was hellish as I tried (in vain) to be well in time for work and uni on Monday. Funnily enough, this is exactly how my last HSM went. I ended up with a stinking cold, barely able to move. Lemon in hot water has become my best friend. It’s so soothing. Other than that I didn’t really do much over the rest of the weekend. I did, however, go to a yoga class last night, which seems to have confused my muscles. It’s like they’re not sure whether it’s the infection that is making them ache, or the yoga last night. I am hoping that endorphins cure me, so I’m going to a cycling class later this evening. I am hoping I don’t end up passed out on the floor afterwards. Taking loads of cold and flu tablets have certainly helped. [...]

Nights out are boring
17/03/12 • 1 Comment

Last night I made the monumental trek into the city to see a friend for his birthday. It was alright, nothing really special. I get so sick of answering the same questions over and over again ‘Where are you from?’ ‘How long have you been here?’ ‘What do you like better, here or England?’ ‘Oh my God I just LOVE your accent’ Arrrrrrrrrrrgh!!! Sometimes I feel like I should just staple a big sign to my forehead saying ‘English. 5 years. Here indefinitely. Thanks’ and just leave it at that. I haven’t actually had a night out in ages, and it was totally overrated. I ended up having to come home at 4am because I got so fed up of hanging around people off their tits on drugs and drink.  Drunk people are boring. SO BORING. I have now decided that there is nothing really I’d like more than to [...]