I’m bored & want a drink
07/10/11 • 3 Comments

Well actually I don’t really want a drink I just want something to do and my usual thought is I’m bored, it’s wine o’clock. I don’t really want a drink. I’m not craving the taste or even the feeling it gives me. I am just bored and wanting something to do. I haven’t got anything on tonight and I’m avoiding dinners out with most of my friends as it is usually accompanied with a bottle or four of wine and so now I’m left with not a great deal to do. The problem is compounded by the fact it’s been a pretty mundane day! Dentist appointment and reading as the weather has been so horrible! I bought a bike this morning, but it’s been too wet to ride it not exercising during the day often seems to lead to my drinking at night! So I am starting to find some [...]

Aftermath of a festival
03/10/11 • 7 Comments

My brother spent all of yesterday at a festival and ALL of today in bed! Now I’m certainly not sitting on my high horse judging. How can I when in the past I have been in the same boat and only days ago I scummed and had a few drinks myself!!! But wow it is eye opening! One day spent partying away boozing up and partying hard costs you a whole other day. The poor guy literally did not leave his bed except to go to the bathroom, usually to be sick. And I am sure he was not alone, being a long weekend, festivals starting, footy finals on, I’m sure there was thousands of others out there today suffering the aftermath of a big weekend! I certainly can’t say I felt sad or regretful to be left out if that club! I don’t wonder if it was worth the [...]

Happy birthday hangover
02/10/11 • 10 Comments

well I really wish I could give you good news after yesterday’s post and tell you I stayed strong and didn’t drink. I even considered lying and saying that I abstained from alcohol, if for no other reason then not to let the HSMers on here who have shown me so much kindness and support. It’s funny how I feel so accountable to strangers really… But I feel like some of you guys have become friends and partners on my journey. So I had some drinks last night and it seems pointless to lie about it. I guess I am worried that by admitting it I might lose the support of some of my HSM friends on here. So I woke up with a hangover yet again on my birthday! Pretty shitty at myself. The thing is I know I can do this and I am really determined despite my [...]

Breaking old and starting new
29/09/11 • 2 Comments

So I seem to be breaking old habits and starting new ones. Not suprising ad I am nearing my 3 week milestone. It’s not something I wad conscious oc really till I was in my pj’s after a long day of work sipping on a cup of tea. Ordinarily I would have been salivating over a glass of wine on the drive home and then head straight to the fridge when I entered the front door. It’s amazing how I’m thinking of alcohol less and less! And how nice it is waking up morning after morning hangover free, without a fuzzy head!

Survived my first big occasion!
27/09/11 • 2 Comments

so tonight was probably one of the biggest occasions I’ve faced since starting my HSM. I’m sure you might be thinking what could be possibly be a big deal on a Tuesday night, but being a shift working flight attendant big events often pop up during the week as we are away alot on weekends! So tonight was a huge birthday bash for a friend at a gay club in the city. The event was always going to be big, with lots of people and lots of alcohol flowing! Normally I would have started my night with a few drinks getting ready, get a little tipsy before hand and then start shotting drinks as soon as I had a foot in the door! But instead I made it through the evening without a drop of alcohol passing my lips. I still had a good time. And I think maybe a [...]