I made it four weeks!
06/11/11 • 2 Comments

Just wanted to write a brief note that I made it four weeks with no alcohol. I’ve been having a lot of anxiety, but I’m so happy that I started this journey. I have learned so much already and I’m thankful for this community!!!!

Not so scary this year…
30/10/11 • 2 Comments

So…in New York, Halloween is like a major holiday. Last year I ended up throwing up on myself at a restaurant after leaving the bar. I know, that is absolutely disgusting, and I am beyond embarassed about that, but this year, I was sober. And I feel great about that. Even though I’ve been experiencing some major anxiety attacks (and since my last blog actually went to the hospital to get evaluated, at the request of my Dr), I’m still beyond grateful that I found this site. I feel like despite the anxiety, I am able to more clearly understand myself, and what I want from life. Three weeks in, and I’m thinking…could I go longer than three months? It seems like that happens to a lot of us, suddendly alcohol just doesn’t seem like a necessity any longer.

Anxiety & Alcohol Withdrawal
23/10/11 • 10 Comments

When I began my HSM journey two weeks ago I expected nothing but positive side effects. I thought I would lose weight and possibly have less anxiety. I have to say that so far this has not been as challenging as I thought it would be. I’m inspired by making this change in my life. We get so overwhelmed by change that until we attempt to do something we have no idea that it might not be as hard as we anticipated. Of course there have been a few moments when drunk people have really annoyed me, but for the most part I have been able to maintain an active social life, without alcohol.  What’s really troubling, however, is that my anxiety has gone through the roof. I’ve had a few panic attacks which can be extremely frightening. I worry that I’m losing my mind. I should explain that I [...]

My new journey
09/10/11 • 7 Comments

Over the past year or so (or so haha) my friends have commented that perhaps I am drinking too much, and getting out of control when I drink. For quite a while I have contemplated the need to take a break from drinking in order to regain a sense of control over my life. I need to know that I can be social and have fun, without drinking. Too many mornings are spent feeling the aweful mental and physical effects of having a hangover. Furthermore, I feel that some of my relationships have been compromised because of my drinking. I don’t believe that I am an alcoholic, and at this point I am not planning on giving up drinking forever, but I definitely need to take a breather before this becomes a bigger problem.  That being said, I am definitely nervous about the events coming up in the next three [...]