I am starting over today!
30/04/12 • 3 Comments

Okay well as I posted last I ended up getting drunk again. Now I have spent the last two days feeling really down about it. I have decided to work out some new goals and completley start my time over again with my hello Sunday morning, for the second time. Makes me feel better  to see that others like me have had a second or third try and eventually come out better off for it and made it right through. Right I am off to think of some new goals, I am sure I can only go up from here because i feel like right now I have hit rock bottom!  

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29/04/12 • 3 Comments

well this weekend I went to a bit of a gathering with my hello sunday morning in mind, got ready then at the last ,minute someone offered me a beer and I was like yes please and thats where it started. I completley forgot why I had choosen to do this, i smoked and didnt go to the gym today, all of this is like pretty much who I dont want to be any more. So mad at myself right now. I really need to get out and about and not get smashed now I just gotta wait for an opportunity, i cant wait to show myself again i can have fun without getting drunk I really wish thats what i had done last night.

What a disaster
16/04/12 • 4 Comments

Ok so this weekend just gone was the first time i went out and i had planned to have some drinks. Long story short I cannot remember a thing pretty much. I am really sad now because after all that time not drinking I drink and it turns out going wrong and when you havent had that awful feeling you get when you are hung over and you think what on earth happened last night in so long it is all of a sudden ten times worse. I hate the fact that I cant remember what happened it actually scares me. and I know what I am like so I know i would have made an abslute dick of myself. I feel like over the last three months I learnt nothing. I changed my profile today to show my time as 6 months I need more time I think. I [...]

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02/04/12 • 2 Comments

Well I am officially one week out from my 3 months being all over rover. Been an interesting time, thought provoking in the later stages, I think when you get to the point that you are really thinking about it you are about to come to the part that it becomes really easy. Have my drinking habits changed, well we will see but I can honestly say I wont be going for a beer every night like I was I dunno how i could think and how i survived with less energy. I guess resintroducing alcohol in my life will be the next challenge, one that i wont share with you all. Riteo peace out!

Kinda confused
26/02/12 • 3 Comments

Feeling quite frustratd this Sunday. Still going strong but am finding that when you are havent drunk in so long the novelty of having your weekends back dies down a little and you start to feel like a drink with some friends would be nice. Which now to me seems weird because drinking does not change anything really???? and if you had asked me last week I would have been saying that drinking is a complete waste of your weekend. I still havent had any major social events to really test my strength yet but plenty coming up next month ahhhh!!!!! Feeling like I have a much clearer head now. I now underastand that too much drinking can completley stuff up your life. But i also realise that stopping is not the answer to all of your problems….but it is easier to maybe not solve problems but clear hurdles when you do [...]