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Bikram Yoga
24/09/11 • 1 Comment

So On friday morning i tried Bikram Yoga. Its yoga done in a heated room. The room is roughly 40 ‘C which is ridiculously hot let me tell you. I could barely do any of the poses because the heat brought on severe exhaustion. I’ll tell you what though, i felt damn good after. My body was definitely feeling it though so much so that i may or may not have had a minor car-carpark incident that is going to cost me $600. Lets not talk about it, i’m depressed about it as it is. So that put a dampner on my weekend and kind of ruined the vigour that seemed to come from the yoga. Anyway i’m going to go again tomorrow, Bikram yoga really focuses on centering and calming your mind. It tests willpower and mind over body strength. Its all about the steps. That was a solid [...]

for i feel on the verge of relapse.
10/09/11 • 2 Comments

Sundayitis #confession
04/09/11 • 1 Comment

I’m struggling really hard to not have a glass of wine right now. Seriously.. I woke up this morning and felt like i had been run over by a truck and i didn’t have a drop to drink the whole weekend. I went out both nights though and there was alcohol and each event. The friday night was pretty hard cause everyone else was smashed off their face. I realised that being sober amongst people that you don’t know and who are heavily intoxicated is really difficult. It’s definitely easier when you know the people well. Also i think generally out of all the “types” of drunks that they are, i think i’m one of the worse ones. The good types are really friendly and fun to be around, those sagitarians and virgos. Then there are the more complacent kind of drunk dancers that just kind of sway and move [...]

Last Night
28/08/11 • 1 Comment

So i wrote a nice long post and then my laptop just decided to shut down. Its been 21 days since i started HSM. It feels like so much longer. I had a really good night last night. It was probably the first HUGE night that i’ve had to be sober and i had a really good time. I caught up with people, i danced a lot and i didn’t wake up this morning feeleing like absolute shit. I knew that after a good sleep i could get up and get back to work or just function. I think that having a few nights out before this big one without alcohol has made it easier. I’m getting more used to diet coke and water as a staple for a night out. Don’t get me wrong though, it was still bloody hard. I couldn’t even taste peoples cocktails. I also had [...]

Some good advice i got given today from a dear friend. Part of this project for my own self growth has been my inability to say no to people. Atleast thats what i thought, i’ve found that leads far and beyond that. It leads to not being able to say no to unnecessary desires and wants. This is a good saying, i hope it gives you all the strength it has given me. Unfortunately all i have for you all are my words. I’ve also become very apathetic and increasinlg tired all the time. I’m unsure as to why. Went to the GP today and got a blood test so lets see. I’m nervous. I don’t know.