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To give it up…
02/09/11 • 6 Comments

2 days ago my new work mate asked why i dont drink. i said because i used to drink alot and i didnt like the person i became when drunk so i gave it up. He said why give it up completely when its a social thing, why not have self control and stop at because getting tipsy? I looked at him blankly while thinking he has a point and also embaressed by the fact that i dont have self control and i cant stop (didnt tell him that) instead i casually shrugged as i pondered about it.. I read everyone blog and most people are so happy and feeling great to have given it up. I suffer from extreme depression and have for years – though i never give up trying to battle it!!!! i stoped drinking because it made my depression alot worse, and i thought it made [...]

The reason i question doing the whole 3 mnths are for a few reasons. When i think about drinking i get a really bad feeling because it reminds me of the regrets, the black outs, the depression and it really scares me. I dont want to have alchole as an enemy. I dont want to be scared and have this dark feeling about it like i do now but i always dont want the black outs and the regrets. When i do start drinking i want to only drink 2 drinks per week max! and i am hoping that it will slowly show me that i can have a good relationship with drinking when i limit myself. I have suffered from anorxeia for years and i always feel gulity when it comes to food but its a part of life and im accepting that. With drinking im am so scared [...]

Summer of loose times…
25/08/11 • 1 Comment

This time last year my friend and i was like school girls getting all excited about our summer ahead of us. Beach, hot weather, boys, bikini’s, dresses and of course the sydney night life never stops. While most peoples goals were to get healthy and look and feel their best our goals were to be able to say ” that was a loose summer” (with a smile and a laugh)… I look back and cringe when i have of the 5 day benders of black outs and not wanting to go out the next day but it was a goal! we had to do it ( excuses).. I can say we had a loose summer but i dont feel the smile when i think about it.. spend alot of money, was known as the party girl , felt and looked unhealthy, hungover at work constantly.. but i did have times [...]

Have a drink, this time it will be different…
21/08/11 • 3 Comments

I have noticed that the pressure i am feeling to drink isnt all that strong by my friends, the real pressure is coming from me. I have been telling myself that if you last a month and then have a rule of sticking to 2 glasses once a week thats a healthy relationship. I know that i have said this many times in the past and it goes to 2 bottles… I went over to a friends to watch underbelly razor last night and as i was driving home the police pulled me over, he asked if i had been drinking. When i said no i smiled to myself because i am proud i have drank in 3 weeks. I got home at 12am and had remembered that this is the first time i am walking through the door to my apartment at 12am that im not drunk! I do [...]

It will be a struggle..
19/08/11 • 3 Comments

3rd weekend that i will be sober doesnt sound all that impressive but i have to admit that it feels like it has been a year. Friends from england are saying that they will make me drink when they come over and but that time it will be 1 mnth (which i never thought i could do) so i thought maybe ill have a couple but then seeing people do the 3 mnths is inspiring and i signed up to this so i dont want to regret failing- then having to start again. I have heard the first mnth is always the hardest then it gets easier, but i drink for the social side so unless my friends are going into hibernation this spring i may still have to battle my way to the end. its so easy to say hey lets go for a drink and catch up! 3 [...]