It’s been a long week
08/04/12 • 4 Comments

Well, I’m certainly relieved I’ve made it past the 6 days that was my second HSM. Today marks two weeks off the booze and I’d be lying if I said it was easy.  A few days before this HSM began I bought a bottle of Jameson’s. It has slowly become my favourite tipple and I enjoy drinking it a lot. The bottle is sitting half full (optimist) in next doors kitchen. I left it there after a pre drinking session and I am yet to pick it up. It’s hardly far… a few metres but the reality is, I don’t want it back. I’ve tried to give it away but nobody wants it…nobody likes it. It’s mine for the taking. For the time being it is going to stay next door. I’m not sure if it had been in my room that I’d have made it to two weeks. This [...]

‘Grab the bull by the horns’
25/03/12 • 4 Comments

Sitting at Reading train station, nursing a hangover I found myself contemplating life. I opened my textbook in the hope of doing some reading but instead found myself literally just watching the world go by. Every now and then I would bring my eyes back to the book in the hope of gaining some kind of sense on reality. ‘Emily, WHAT are you doing?’ screamed my conscience. Now is not the time to be doing this. Alcohol has slowly made its way back into my life and sadly, so have hangovers.  Right now these are the last thing I need. Finals are less than two months away. I don’t have the time for anything, let alone drinking. So, with a few minutes to spare waiting for my train I decided to get my mind into gear. No longer can I bury my head in the sand and pretend that finals [...]

Hiding my heart away…
20/01/12 • 2 Comments

Firstly I must say that I’m terrified about making this one public, but here goes… ‘This is how the story went; I met someone by accident who blew me away.’ Unlike my sister, I am not obsessed with Adele. But these lyrics(and the rest) are just gorgeous. With Valentine’s day looming I find myself once again embracing the single life. My second HSM is somewhat in pieces right now but that’s ok. Reassessing my judgement from a couple of weeks back I have come to realise that actually it just wasn’t right to start my second HSM. At that time my heart wasn’t in it. During my 12 month HSM I learnt a great deal about myself, grew as an individual and reflected massively on my motivation(s) to drink. Each week I would pour out a fragment of my soul onto the page in a jumbled mess of words in [...]

What now?
08/01/12 • 3 Comments

Here we have it, the blog I never wanted to write. Apparently though, or so I heard a few times on Friday night one that others ‘couldn’t wait’ to read. Friday – 6 days into my 2nd HSM and what did I do? I got drunk. Upon questioning about what I was going to write this week my reply was ‘something along the lines of I’m a failure.’ This reinforced by a ‘I’m not angry, just very very disappointed’ facebook status of a friend and fellow HSMer got me thinking. It all started in a quiet country pub on Friday evening.  After 10 minutes I had replaced my diet coke with a glass of rose. Initially, of course I was disappointed with myself. This soon faded and I was just so glad to enjoy the company of those I was with. I enjoyed a lovely dinner with the ladies and [...]

A bit scared about this one…
05/01/12 • 2 Comments

This prospect of this weekend is making me nervous. Ridiculous really. You see, tomorrow I am heading to see some beautiful friends – Shauna, Julie and Katie. In 2008 we went on a girlie holiday. It was messy! On an individual basis I have seen them all on countless occasions since, but I can’t for the life of me remember the last time we were all together. Probably a good thing really – the booze fuelled holiday culminated in Katie slapping me across the face, Julie literally having the worst hangover of her life and a pooling together of enough small change to afford a cup of Bovril for Shauna on the return flight. Really though, we had the most amazing time. At the welcome meeting the holiday rep greeted us with 4 large glasses of Sangria. This set the tone for the week and you can only imagine the [...]