Tough Love
04/01/12 • 5 Comments

Tough Love: an expression used when someone treats another person harshly or sternly with the intent to help them in the long run.  Hmmm, I think I would change that definition to…Tough Love: something that sucks and is totally painful.  But despite it being absolutely terrible (at least thats how it has felt this last week) I guess it is kind of effective.  Did I just admit that?  Ugh, I guess I did. Yup, I have been served up a whole lotta tough love this week and it sucked.  I was really excited about starting my HSM (and so far I have been very succesful thank you very much!) but my best friends were not exactly on the same page.  When I declared I was embarking on HSM I got a whole lot of “you can’t stop drinking”, “you won’t be successful” and “oh by the way we haven’t told [...]

The Girl Who Cried Wolf
03/01/12 • 5 Comments

You know the story of the boy who cried wolf?  Well, right now I feel like the girl who cried wolf and as a result I feel all alone.  Basically, my best friends are telling me that they no longer trust me and that they do not belive me that I have giving up drinking.  They have told me this repeatedly.  They keep telling me HSM will never work, that it is for college kids and only for those that just want to give up drinking because they think it is culturally bad not because they have a problem with drinking.  Yes, it is true there are some people on here that do not have drinking problems but there are many that do.  And frankly HSM is working for me. What isn’t working for me is that my friends do not have faith in me.  That they think it is [...]

Be the Author of Your Own Book
02/01/12 • 3 Comments

I aways liked the saying “You are the author of your own book, you can close the last chapter and start a new one, and you can make it a comedy, romance or tragedy, you choose”.  So true, we are the authors of our own book, we do control our lives and our destiny. It got me thinking about how I would write my 2012 chapter.  And I thought what if I wrote the 2012 chapter now as if it already happened?  What if I wrote it like I want it to happen would it be more likely to happen?  How do you want your 2012 to be, what would you write? So I decided to would write the last page of my 2012 chapter as if it was December 31st, 2012 and I was doing a retrospective…   December 31st, 2012 What a fabulous year!  This was the year [...]

It’s Not the Mountain We Counquer But Ourselves
01/01/12 • 8 Comments

  Sir Edmund Hillary was quoted saying “it’s not the mounatin we conquer but ourselves” and I couldn’t agree more.  This quote basically sums up my struggles with alcohol.  Since taking the HSM challenge (only 3 days ago) and working on stopping drinking (1.5 years ago) I have realized that it’s not the alcohol that is the problem it’s the cover-up. Alcohol is my mountain but it’s the things in my life I need to conquer.  I started “trying” to stop drinking a year and half ago with mixed sucess.  I didn’t suceed because I didn’t admit to myself that I had a problem.  I thought surely I wasn’t an alcoholic, cause if I was I must be surrounded by them.  Well after reflection I am surrounded by alcoholics but thats no excuse for me to not adress my own problem with alcohol. You see, I use alcohol to drown [...]

25 Things to Do Instead of Drinking
31/12/11 • 1 Comment

1.  Tell someone you love them 2.  Take a long walk in new place 3.  Make playlist 4.  Write a love letter 5.  Go to the musuem 6.  Make dinner with friends 7.  Volunteer at the local food bank 8.  Donate to a good cause 9.  Learn to knit 10.  Call someone you love and tell them how special they are 11.  Walk a dog at the local animal shelter 12.  Go for a bike ride 13.  Write a poem 14.  Make bucket list 15.  Go to the farmer\’s market 16.  Watch the sunset 17.  Research your familiy geneology 18.  See a play 19.  Take a road trip 20.  Play charades 21.  Plant a windowsill herb garden 22.  Star gaze on a moonless night 23.  Learn to play the guitar 24.  Buy flowers for someone special in your life 25.  Be proud that you are being the best that you [...]