Tonight tonight
25/01/12 • 4 Comments

Not expecting anyone to read this but coming on here cos this evening is the toughest evening yet: in terms of me thinking \”Screw it, I\’ll head out for a drink\”.   Otherwise I\’ve been loving the past 26 (I stopped 30th December) alcohol free days. Unlike before where one to two (to three to four) mornings a week I was dragging myself out of bed and having to plough my way through the day, since giving up booze I\’ve been getting up earlier and earlier: am now a 5am riser…exercising in the mornings: absolutely loving it. Also my mood is WAY better, and my general outlook on life: honestly very happy, positive, thinking of all the things that are out there for me to see and do.   One thing that\’s amazed me is that I have so much EXTRA TIME !!!  My God there are lists of things [...]

It’s strange
02/01/12 • 1 Comment

Its strange how the amount that I drink has slowly increased over the years without me noticing.I would never have thought of myself as ‘one of those people’ as I don’t drink every night of the week: but to be honest it has become EVERY weekend. I think I lost every weekend of 2011 to alcohol as even if it’s just a Friday night, as you age it tends to affect you for days after a binge (or at least I find so). Of course this seemed normal to me as we’re all high functioning professionals: so how could alcohol possibly be a problem for me/us ? I now realise that the only way I know to enjoy my weekend is by drinking, which is a bit pathetic. I also must accept that so many things that ‘went wrong’ in 2011, where I thought that circumstance or chance had conspired [...]