Hello Sunday Morning | Jeff

i need HSM
07/04/12 • 4 Comments

just a quick blog, but ive realised i need to be back here. i used the end of my last HSM period as an excuse to drink again, but know i need to stop… again. this site is a god send for people like me, and to get back to how happy i was i feel is intrinsic to getting there. ive said it before on here, and some people just cant drink, and im one of them. i look forward to again being the person reflected in my past blogs and posts. for the people i love and yes, most importantly for me. i had found myself as a non drinker, and yet i regressed. all forward from now. good luck everyone jeff

hi everyone, been ages since i posted here due to “king Net-Tune” not being on my side, but thankfully google chrome seems to have come to my rescue. thought i would post an update to maybe help others not as far along the wagon trail as i am. ive never gone this long without drinking. although i have pretty much always known the destructive influence it has had on me, i continued so often with the old “ill be okay this time….” mentality. here are a few points (including a little background info on me)i have found particularly interesting in my journey to date: 1. i am a person who has a history of being very up and down (even had to see a psychiatrist to determine if i were bi polar – thankfully im not…only depression… small mercies, hey?!) and alcohol and fitness play a massive part in [...]

“I like this me too much.”
23/12/11 • 5 Comments

happy festive season fellow hsmers! well, here i am on hsm at 2 oclock on what has in the past typically been one of the biggest afternoon/nights of drinking. i am sure the inner city pubs are all very lively right now, with everyone finished their pseudo work day and getting into the drinking. thankfully, i neither felt any compulsion nor had any pressure to join them. invited, politely declined, no questions asked. perfect! for the benefit of providing a little background, it was on this day a few years ago that i got so drunk i couldnt go to my family’s christmas. yep. the last day of work fell on the 24th and due to my horrific hangovers (basically, 2 day long anxiety attacks) after a huge night i was simply unable to leave the house. the guilt i felt for letting my family down remains in my memory [...]

the scary season?!
12/12/11 • 7 Comments

ah damn. just inadvertently went back a browser page and lost about 7 paragraphs of my blog! lol… ce la vie. well, i was saying that i am now just 2 weeks away from completing my 3 month hsm. oh, and i also said all of us hsmers are awesome. yes, ALL of us! so, now for the most testing time of the year for anyone giving up drinking. my hsm finishes on the 24th of december, so this gives me a good excuse to skip on the work functions. also, my family knows i am not drinking (which they are very happy about because of my past indiscretions!) so christmas wont see any pressure on me to drink either. i have to confess that apart from one night, i have employed a tactic of avoidance. if i look at the net value of this decision with regards to fun [...]

strange, but great…
17/11/11 • 4 Comments

…just like me! okay, so i dont want to go into details, but yesterday was a day i have had weighing very heavily on my mind for the last few months and cause for sleep difficulty and no small amount of stress. anyway, after an entire day of concentration and stress, it turned out that this day had to be postponed for another two weeks. i want this over.* when i got home i was exhausted both physically and mentally and it was then that i had the strangest thought: “I’m glad I dont drink”. it is pretty much automaton-like we tend to seek out wine [insert your former drink of choice here!] when we are in need of recollecting ourselves, “de-stressing” and getting through testing times. the myth that is alcohol says that it is the best tonic (for want of a better word!) for such occasions; we know [...]