I could have murdered a bottle of wine tonight!!!
27/01/12 • 1 Comment

I almost did – I spent an hour going back & forth in my head – do I? don’t I?  (After all, 12mths is a really long time, perhaps I can have 1 drinking day per month? that would be pretty fair wouldn’t it? its certainly better than zero sober days?…..  hmmmmmm  the excuses…..)  I’m in the middle of moving house, moving day is tomorrow & the new place isn’t ready yet, I have to hand over the keys to this place on Monday so I’m just a little up in the air at the moment.  Dealing with solicitors today was doing my head in and now I have no real idea what is going to happen tomorrow.  The kitchen is all packed up so I was half-heartedly encouraging my daughter to have toast for dinner (knowing if we went out for take away I was likely to stop at [...]

2 weeks
19/01/12 • 1 Comment

Yay,  2weeks today & happy to say its all going well, much easier this time round! I had a lot going on at the time of my last attempt & I’ve sorted most of that out now & moving on with my life – feeling a lot more positive about things this time round & really wanting a fresh start.  I had a dream the other night & in it I was really struggling with HSM – however the reality hasn’t been that bad.  I’ve had a few transient urges (mostly when stressed) but it passes quickly – once i make that decision “No, I will not drink” the urge passes – in the past when I have been indecisive about whether or not I might drink I will definitely end up drinking. I’ve had this week off work (the first week off in almost 12mths I just realised – [...]

I’m back! :-)
08/01/12 • 0 Comments

OK, my August attempt was a false start! I think I made it 2 weeks before slipping out the back door quietly But I’m back again, & ready to give it another shot – I’m all pumped up ready for it.  This is day 3 for me. Hoping to make it 12mths, but will reward myself at the 3week mark (will treat myself to a facial for my new vibrant complexion), then again at 3months (maybe a weekend mini-break).  I’ve signed up for a charity 5km run at the end of March so I’m committed to getting fit also (will start that one next week LOL). Looking forward to following everyone else’s journeys – looks like there’s plenty of newcomers for the new year, so good to know I’m not alone. Kxx    

Made it to the eve of my first HSM
20/08/11 • 1 Comment

I’m ready to say HSM tomorrow after coming so so close to buying wine on my way home last night – for some reason I craved wine because it was friday night and that means its OK to have a drink (never mind that I was working 8hrs today – friday was calling!)  After much deliberation I decided to stay strong & have a girls movie night at home.  My daughter & I had subway, popcorn, M&Ms and soft drinks and watched dvds I’m starting to feel better now – not so cranky lol (and I wasn’t even tempted to get wine tonight just because its saturday).  I’m going to celebrate HSM by getting out of the house before 11am – maybe a walk, bike ride or those markets I’ve been meaning to check out 30mins from here.

Day 2 was a cranky day!
17/08/11 • 0 Comments

I stayed up late last night – thinking I wouldn’t be able to get to sleep if I went to bed early & sober.  I’ve been feeling tired and slightly hungover all day despite not having drunk anything. Better get to bed earlier tonight.  I was a bit impatient & cranky today (and my 6yo has an annoying habit of saying “what?” to absolutely everything I say – making me repeat everything constantly!!! it was particularly infuriating today!)  but I still managed to be more productive than usual – we got out to the park & the library so I’m all stocked up with bedtime reading materials – off to bed for me…