Week 5 – Back on track
31/10/11 • 2 Comments

Well I’m happy to report that after my slip a week ago I am now well and truely back on track. The last week has flown by and I’ve not missed alcohol at all. I have however noticed that I’ve replaced wine with lollies, so still no weight loss to report. I went to a social event on the weekend where I was asked by the same person numerous times if I wanted a drink (about 8 times)!  I have another big occasion this weekend so am anticipating a similar reaction, I feel like I’m letting people down, but thats ridiculous right? If they want my company wouldn’t they prefer it when I can actually hold a conversation? For me I dont mind not drinking when I go out its when I’m cooking dinner the voice comes into my head that a wine would be nice, however I have noticed that [...]

I fell off the horse
23/10/11 • 4 Comments

Or is it the cart? Anyway what ever it is that you fall off I fell off it! 3 TIMES!!! Last week I used all my will power not to drink but Friday night thought ‘I’m going to drink tonight’ and I did. I felt really bad the next day but true to form once I give up on something once I do it again, so I drank Saturday night and last night. So thismorning I am asking myself why I did this and I really dont know why. Would have just completed 4 weeks had I not done this. I have decided to come clean tell everyone and jump back on the horse…I’m not going to start over I’m just acknowledging a slight slip up and taking off where I left Here is what I learnt from drinking the past 3 nights; 1. My tolerance is exactly where it [...]

3 weeks nearly caved
17/10/11 • 6 Comments

Hi, Tonight I have just completed over 3 weeks no alcohol. Let me tell you I have been feeling great but today I received some bad news and my automatic reaction was “I need a wine” I even rang my partner and asked if he could pick me up a bottle of wine on his way home…but then I thought about my committment to HSM and how bad I would feel tomorrow from having broken my promise to myself so rang him back and said not to get it after all. I’m so happy that I didn’t drink tonight the bad news is still there but drinking wont make it better or change anything. I did eat some chocolate instead though just to give myself something. I thought I’d do a quick post to say if anyone else is in the same boat as me and going through a bit [...]

I drink to relax….hmmmm???
10/10/11 • 4 Comments

Hi all, I’m just over 2 weeks in and am feeling proud that I’ve even made it this far. My newest revelation is this…drinking wine = stress. I have spent a good many many years thinking the exact opposite and so filling myself full of the stuff most nights. I have only just realised that it was the most stressful thing in my life. It was stressful for me because I didn’t stick to the recommended safe level (no way near) so worried a lot about the damage I was causing to myself, I was always tired, getting out of bed was a struggle and had a lot of guilt about what I was doing. AND most of all I was stressed at the thought that I was going to have to stop drinking one day and my life would be awful (ridiculous I know). I feel a weight has been lifted [...]

More time to….
30/09/11 • 5 Comments

Well, this is day 6 for me and so far so good, actually its been a lot easier than I thought. So far this week I have noticed how much more time I have. Time to do all the little things I have been putting off, I even did my tax return! But most of all time to think about things other than “I must stop drinking so much” “I must lose weight, but how can I when I drink so many calories” “should I drink tonight or not” “how many alcohol free days have I had this week” blah blah blah… This of course does not even include the hours of time I spent actually drinking the wine. I have no idea why this has been so easy normally I struggle for 2 alcohol free days a week and then spend those 2 nights thinking “wish I could have a [...]