Its not easy
21/04/11 • 5 Comments

I’m just shy of two weeks in and this no drinking kick is getting hard. Up till now its been kind of novel, something different and not to difficult. However, tonight the honeymoon period with sober self seems to have ended and now Im missing drunken me. Drunken me is much more fun, I know it and think maybe other people do too. I just got back home after going to a party and then a gig. The party was kind of ok but the bar was difficult. I couldnt get into the groove at the bar and then began to feel like a real downer. Without the booze I had nothing and soon felt tired, detached and a little awkward. I needed to get home. I didnt drink but I didnt have much of a good time either. Then I had a fight with my girlfriend. Honestly, I feel lost without the drink and really want to get drunk but reagrdless, I will stay the course for now.