I noticed the first pang …
06/06/11 • 2 Comments

Ok, so here I am end of day two and hadn\’t really noticed any cravings for alcohol.  I have a half bottle in my fridge – just sitting there – however I haven\’t been tempted, buoyed with the enthusiasm of starting a new way of life.  Its funny I thought the first pang for alcohol would come from that bottle – but I was wrong. It came from passing the drive through bottle shop!!!! WHAT!!!!! Yep, I had a pretty hectic day (sick kids, snotty noses, lost dog, muddy dog, work, cranky collegues etc) and was heading to the pharmacy to pick up the kids prescription when I passed the drive through and went \”hmmm I could do with a wine right now!!\”.  The first pang!!! But you know what, I felt such strength when I thought \”hey 3months baby!! You can do it!!\”.  The first pang went as quickly as [...]

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04/06/11 • 7 Comments

Ok, so tomorrow I start HSM.  I am actually relieved to find something like this as I have been told I am not an alcoholic, I apparently am just another “working mum who lets her hair down over the weeked!!”.  Hmmm.  My goal for this 3 months is to get control over this normalised drinking – which i don’t think is normal at all.  I also want to stop being a walking contradiction – who educates her children as to how damaging alcohol can be – but then is “drunk again” on the weekend!!!  I want to lose the weight I have put on from drinking.  iwant to learn how to communicate again without alcohol – to not be frightened that i am pathetically boring and so need a drink in my hand to buoy my confidence.  I need to learn how to chill without a drink.  But you know [...]