uh oh…
03/10/11 • 5 Comments

this is harder than I thought. either i have willpower that is about as strong as chief wiggum trying to resist a donut, or I am far more enmeshed in a drinking culture and habits than I was aware I was. Perhaps both. Grand final day – the lure of the beer at the bar and all the people drinking and getting rowdy around me was too much, and I succumbed to one beer after another. I couldn\’t believe it, I\’d only lasted for 3 days! I justified my behaviour in about a million differnet ways: \’one won\’t hurt\’, \’oh, i\’ll just drink them slowly\’, \’i\’m only young once\’, etc, etc… it seemed like an impossible task to be at the pub, watching the football, around all my friends who were drinking, and be sipping on a soft drink.So perhaps, at least to begin with, I need to accept the [...]

the beginning…
28/09/11 • 3 Comments

this is my start. 11:58pm on a wednesday night. not 10am on a sunday morning, which is where most of my ill-fated attempts at sobriety have begun. for me this is about having the will power to say no to short term enjoyment for a long-term goal. knowing how deep the well of will power i have to draw on will be a journey in itself. it is uncharted at the moment. I’ve attempted ‘dry’ months before, my worst attempt lasting about 6 hours before a friend’s fridge full of beers on a balmy evening bbq was temptation too much. I managed one month once, about 2 years ago, and I remember how difficult it was to sit in a pub with my boyfriend and all his mates watching them enjoy frosty glasses of carlton draught whilst i sipped on a flat, watery, postmix diet coke. I also remember the [...]