Wine…Get out of my head!!!
11/01/12 • 5 Comments

Today is one week, only one week and I am tired with thinking about trying not to think about not drinking.  This is harder, harder than I thought it would be.  I wish I could be one of those that stop drinking and find they have more energy, start to feel better etc, etc.  But to be honest I just miss it.  Does anyone else try to rationalise drinking.  The ‘just one wont do me any harm’ type of thing.  These thoughts are a contstant.  Anyway, am going to bed…. at least I dont dream of drinking (at the moment).

Here Goes…
04/01/12 • 4 Comments

It sounds so pathetic to start off saying I have never done anything like this.  It is even more pathetic to be typing this after a bottle of wine.  I hate the fact that I couldnt do this without that.  When I am sober I wouldnt even give this a second thought so in my ’3 sheets to the wind’ state I thought that if I put something down in writing I may actually try to stick to it.  I love drinking wine, but I hate drinking wine.  Everytime I go and buy a bottle (or few) I have the good angel sitting on my shoulder saying that I shouldnt be doing this.  I would love for that angel to win, but it is alway the other one.  ’This is the last one…’ etc etc.  I have said that to myself so many times now I have lost count.  I [...]