A little thank you.
29/02/12 • 1 Comment

hi all. Well I got through the weekend with the help of my friends and of course you lot, reading your blogs helps so much and keeps me feeling like I have the support behind me to do anything. I had quite a few realisations which for those of you who read my last post will know, It was a hard weekend, so hard but needed and now im seeing positives, sometimes you just need a good cry. Im back up in London now and have a packed week ahead of me, been going to the gym loads and have a comedy gig to go to tonight and rock climbing tomorrow… These are things I normally would miss out on because of either a hangover of because I would have prefered to spend the money at the pub. Had a wonderful lunch today playing table tennis… I havent had spare [...]

Anyone there?
27/02/12 • 6 Comments

I had a lovely relaxed weekend, springs here and the weather couldnt have been better, I didnt drink and felt better for it. Its now monday morning and im filled with the largest amout of fear and a clarity of what my life has become… its just hit me that without alchohol, funfilled weekends with all my friends… I actually have very little left in my life that is worth anything or makes me happy. I feel scared and alone and suddenly like the past 5 years have been a huge waste, just an endless cycle of parties to stop me having to face reality. I trained in an area of the arts throughout my childhood and into my teens and early 20s… I am very good at what I do but have no belief in myself and never have so I have never had the courage to put myself [...]

How long will the blehhh feeling last?
24/02/12 • 3 Comments

Did any of you feel a bit ill after your first week of no alcohol? Ive got this constant headache and cannot for the life of me get enough of sleep… having 9hours a night compared to my normal 6 of the last 10 years. Feeling mentally really good but my body seems to be falling apart a little…

Wine-ing
23/02/12 • 3 Comments

God I want a glass of Red wine. Thats it.

Happy.
22/02/12 • 2 Comments

Last night I really wanted a drink(felt kinda thirsty for one). Didnt. Feel great today on day 5 of HSM and my mind is buzzing from sleep, good food and even better sober conversations with all my friends. Happy and looking forward to getting out of London for the weekend and enjoying a bit of countryside… I feel like im slightly cheating by having my first alcohol free weekend out of London? I know the real test is going to gigs or out for a meal in my normal haunts. Any tips for coping with those kinds of evenings?